So, this weekend I met up with Marie for a kind of farewell, before she moves to London to seek fame and fortune. I took her to a lovely pub on the outskirts of Leeds, which I have long earmarked to take a special girl to. Marie fits this bill well. She was also really impressed with the CD I gave her, a late birthday present, with "Happy Birthday" written in Finnish... She also kept telling me what a great guy I was and how I would definitely find somebody else... So if I'm such a great guy, why does she only want to be friends?? Am I ugly? Do I smell? I would like to think the answer would be "no" to both them questions, but I am beginning to wonder. Why does it always work out for everybody else, apart from me?

Take my housemate, Scott for example. After the devastation of his split with Kirsty (when she cheated on him with one of his friends, back in April) he subscribed to a well known dating site (The one thats advertised on the telly) and within one month is now seeing another girl, called "Kate." I am pleased for him, because I spent the majority of May sat with him in local pubs while he cried into his beer and as always it was me who had to pick up the pieces. I am pleased for him that he has found somebody else, because of what he has been through recently, and Kate is a lot better girl than Kirsty ever was, but I cannot help wondering why it can never happen for me? Why am I the friend and never ever the boyfriend? Funnily enough, Scott had not had a girlfriend for about three years before Kirsty came on the scene and had been rather in the same boat as me. What is he doing any different?

Why is it every girl that I meet, there is always some stupid reason why we cannot be together... Ella it was age-gap, another girl, "Heather" I fancied for over a year, before she told me she was a lesbian (its true, she has a girlfriend of two years now, it's all on Facebook) Marie was because she was moving (but I'm not convinced that she would have even if she'd stayed in Leeds.) and there are countless others, throughout my life that have always wanted me as a friend, but never anything more...

Well I'm joining that dating site, if it worked for Scott, it can work for me too...

Goodnight xx