It's beautiful weather outside. I really want to be outside today, but I'm stuck in doing a job application. I have until 19th June to do it, so there's no mad rush I guess, but while I'm concentrating my efforts on this one (it's a job at Leeds City Council, so it's along and drawn out application form) I'm preventing myself from looking at other jobs and..yes enjoying the sunshine.. Not that I really have anybody to really enjoy it with.. Scott hates the sunshine and is watching the tennis, Federer v Nadal in the French Open. I have no girlfriend (I hate being single on days like today) and no gigs booked either. I have many many acquaintences in this life, but not many people I can just call up and hang about with. They've either got partners of their own or live away from Leeds. I really hate just calling people up randomly, it sounds really desperate as well. My two best frieds live in Hull/East Yorkshire, so it is doubtful they can come round at the drop of a hat.

Marie got back in touch last night, just when I thought she'd gone out of my life as quickly as she'd come. We are currently arranging to meet, possibly next Sunday. It will be nice to say goodbye to eachother properly and I hope that we can keep in touch, but she is moving away from Leeds at the end of this month, and having already asked her out and been turned down, it's not likely that next Sunday will fill me with much joy either.

At least I will be able to give her birthday present, which was a CD made by me in the shape of the Finnish flag (she's from Finland, in case you're wondering) with all her favorite songs on it and a birthday card, which I wrote "Happy Birthday" on in both English and Finnish (the Finnish being "Hyvva syntampaaivva", but with lots of dots and accents over the "a's and i's. Do girls ever appreciate the efforts made by us men to try and impress them??

I hate to be depressing on a beautiful sunny day as today, but sometimes being "on your own" does hit home harder on days like this.

Till next time xx